Every day I look and try to decide if I have reached my perfect number. Is it enough, close enough or just plain not even close? What else do I have to do to get to my perfect number? Is there anything I can do or is it just random? Does it matter that I sweat and work to get that number – especially when on some days I can do nothing and not only reach that perfect number but exceed it! What is the secret to attaining that perfect number? Should I just ignore it and do my own thing – and to heck with the rest of the world?
These are all questions I ask myself every day, sometimes every hour and especially after I have done something which I think should be rewarded with that perfect number.
I know that I have set an arbitrary goal – the perfect number could be anything I choose — so why that number? Would it be better to change it to something much easier to attain every single day? Why that number? I’m sure others have a perfect number higher and some lower — so why that number!?!
There is no use arguing with myself — I can’t seem to shake that perfect number — it is like it found me instead of the other way around.
So – until something better comes along, I will continue to look for my perfect number and sigh with contentment when I reach it and swear under my breath (or probably out loud) when I don’t.
Life goes on — now, you will have to excuse me while I check my stats to see if I’ve attained my ‘perfect number’ of views today!